Happy Valentine's Day

Today was a good day. I was thinking the past few days about last year again,where I was, what was going on, how life in L.A. was and how I miss it...though not those tims really but I guess the feeling at the end of it all when I left that place.

Upon thinking about last year and working at the homeless shelter on Valentine's Day, it was fun. I felt really appreciated and affirmed that day. I had only been working there for two weeks or so at that point, yet different guys got me socks or chocolate that day. And it wasn't in a creepy way, just a way to say your a woman and I give this to you. I guess the thing is that everyone wants to give to someone, wants to feel wanted, even if that is in the way that they give to say they have someone to give to so therefore they are somewhat wanted.

Today was a very good day. One of my roomates and friends cooked my other friend and roomate breakfast. I went and got a manicure and got a latte while having good drawing and journaling time. It felt good to draw again at the coffee shop today. I had my interview at Nordstroms today. There definitely was a few times today while sitting in the room with 20 other people thinking why am I here that came to mind.
I feel more drawn to retail in my heart lately, I know its what I need to do and I do enjoy the thought of parts of it. The other parts is what I'm having a harder time with lately i.e. feeling it in my heart or whatever.
Its like you have to step away from something you love to learn more about it and to ultimately get you back to that place. I believe this retail thing will do that for me. And be less and less excruciating.
I saw a lot of orange faces today, heard a lot of high pitched "professional" voices and surfacey lame talk. I interviewed with two different managers. What is beauty anyway? I think I'm always thinking about that but even more so today. And what does it mean "to sell" something anyway. In one question I had to "sell my outfit" and i wanted to vomit in my mouth. I'm not a big labels person and usually dressing up on professional garb makes me want to vomit and I don't feel myself in it. though, I find there are ways to do that..its a growing merge for me.
I guess I'll find out what happens.
To expand, the first interview was cool, she was a younger girl and we had a nice conversation. The other one, I got interviewed by two older ladies who weren't secure in themselves and bitter. That was my impression. And you know the saying about old bitter women...well, theres no saying but usually they don't like younger youthful women. And I got that from them, you know you can just tell if someone doesn't want you to get the job at the beginning of the interview really.
And to cap the night off, I went with some friends to see Step it up 2, 2 the streets. Good times. It was a good movie, a packed house. I love dance movies. They make you want to quit your day job and just dance on the streets. At least for me. I met so many cool people today, I made a bunch of cookies and wrapped them with ribbon and gave them away randomly. I wanted to give them to homeless folks but I ended up running into more non homeless folks than homeless and gave them the cookies. It was fun, people were really appreciative and enjoyed it. Its fun seeing that. And the cookies were damn good too I would have to say. Just don't eat them for breakfast like I did this morning...before my roomate's breakfast---had a massive and uncomfortable sugar crash this a.m. Since the cookies with frosting are pure sugar and butter. Again, another good times.
So, that was my day. A good one to know you are loved in so many ways and able to give and share that with others.